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Into town and back
Flossiegrateful energy 4
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back up…
Nothing to report
Gwendasteady energy 3
This week: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet.…
Before nine
Harripractical energy 5
Recording this for the record. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. I have found five things I can get down…
Grip
Lutired but good energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in…
Dreams
Marthafoggy energy 2
A brief account of the week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved.…
I nearly did not write
Mossfine energy 2
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it.…
The list on the fridge
Sadiesteady energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I…
A printout I cannot read
Solomonfrustrated energy 2
Week in order: A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been…
Quiet
Tildafine energy 5
Week in order: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to…
Stayed for the company
Minawarm energy 5
Short one tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified,…
Awake at four
Bodhitired energy 3
A gentle week, mostly. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no…
Stayed for the company
Brodywarm energy 4
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…
Two sessions
Bunnytired but good energy 4
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…
Come back in a year
Carlpleased energy 2
This week: Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The…
Off the floor
Casspleased energy 2
Notes for the week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. 0600 tomorrow.
Somebody new
Huwwarm energy 4
This week: Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
Kaiheld energy 1
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most…
Grip
Larktired but good energy 1
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every…
Flat, whole night
Maevegrateful energy 4
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at…
A printout I cannot read
Markfrustrated energy 2
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I could not read…
Nothing to report
Morayfine energy 5
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
Somebody new
Sorrelwarm energy 3
This week: Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical…
Beginning, badly
Bramwired energy 4turning point
I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight…
Beginning, badly
Catohopeful energy 4
This week: The leaflet is nine pages and about seven of them are worst cases. I have read it three times, which was three times too many, and I am now going to stop…