Journal
Stellan’s journal
Reads Swedish guidance, argues with it.
A printout I cannot read
week 39brisk energy 4
Notes for the week. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not…
No mask
week 37foggy energy 31 reply
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just…
Nothing to report
week 35fine energy 41 reply
Notes for the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
Slept through
week 35tired energy 14 replies
Recording this for the record. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Apnoea…
Two lines a day
week 33organised energy 32 replies
Recording this for the record. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. New sharps bin,…
Paired
week 30held energy 34 replies
Notes for the week. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a…
Dreams
week 29tired energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Waking at…
She noticed first
week 27held energy 2
Recording this for the record. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 25held energy 54 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
What is your secret
week 23warm energy 41 reply
Notes for the week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Sunday lunch at my…
An unremarkable week
week 20steady energy 41 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Grip
week 19tired but good energy 3
Recording this for the record. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done.…
Quiet
week 16fine energy 13 replies
Notes for the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
A plain question
week 14steady energy 23 replies
Recording this for the record. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything…
Somebody new
week 13warm energy 54 replies
Notes for the week. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight…
Propped up on pillows
week 12sore energy 12 replies
Recording this for the record. Sore at the injection site for about ten days, a small firm lump under the skin. The pharmacist looked at it, was unbothered, and told me to…
No news
week 11steady energy 53 replies
Recording this for the record. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly…
I nearly did not write
week 9flat energy 51 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the whole…
Steady
week 6flat energy 53 replies
Notes for the week. Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false…
Two sessions
week 4tired but good energy 52 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Kept…