Journal
Bex’s journal
Navy family. Moving every eighteen months.
Two lengths, badly
week 45quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked into town and back, which I stopped…
A printout I cannot read
week 42brisk energy 5
Quickly, before bed. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Took the diary in. She read it…
A different shape
week 40tired energy 14 replies
Quickly, before bed. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you…
Six labelled boxes
week 37organised energy 32 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
An unremarkable week
week 34fine energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
Stayed for the company
week 32warm energy 24 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 30flat energy 53 replies
Quickly, before bed. Bad week and I am writing it down anyway, because a journal that only contains the good weeks would be a lie and no use to anybody reading it later. A…
No mask
week 30foggy energy 5
Ten minutes then I am asleep. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Two lines a day
week 27organised energy 32 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to…
Circle tonight
week 24warm energy 44 replies
Quickly, before bed. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
Paired
week 21held energy 24 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 19organised energy 32 replies
Quickly, before bed. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that…
No news
week 16steady energy 43 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there…
Before nine
week 14steady energy 33 replies
Quickly, before bed. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting…
Six labelled boxes
week 13pleased energy 21 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Transferred a…
The limits of yoghurt
week 11steady energy 13 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Got something with protein in before nine this…
Steady
week 8flat energy 21 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
Before nine
week 6steady energy 23 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. I have found five things I…
An unremarkable week
week 3steady energy 41 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there…
Standing in the kitchen
week 1nervous energy 53 replies
I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. Started three weeks before a posting move. So.…