First dose, done

Ten minutes then I am asleep.

I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight seconds. Then it was over and I felt faintly ridiculous.

Started on a day off because there was no other time.

What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that.

Shift in six hours.