Journal
Marnie’s journal
Menopause circle. Finally understanding my own sleep.
Two years, no news
week 98flat energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. The strange part is not having a…
Three years side by side
week 83relieved energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. Stable. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time…
Both bags, one go
week 55grateful energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Slept through the night for a fortnight running. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without…
Steady
week 53steady energy 13 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet. Injection…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 52organised energy 12 replies
Short one tonight. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
The limits of yoghurt
week 51steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the…
Nothing to report
week 49fine energy 33 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
A new bin and a plan
week 48organised energy 52 replies
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two lines a day in a paper…
An hour on the floor
week 46quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own laces standing up. I am…
She stopped the room
week 45warm energy 54 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new tonight,…
Two flights of stairs
week 43pleased energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole night.…
Fewer, heavier
week 42tired but good energy 42 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to…
Stayed for the company
week 41warm energy 34 replies
A quiet week. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us…
Two lines a day
week 39organised energy 12 replies
A quiet week. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. New sharps bin, and a plan for…
Walking
week 38tired but good energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Kept the two sessions that…
What is your secret
week 37loved energy 11 reply
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A…
My mother cooks
week 36awkward energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she…
She read the diary
week 34frustrated energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A menopause…
She reduced it
week 34frustrated energy 22 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 33tired but good energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a…