Journal
Pam’s journal
Paper diary. I do not trust apps.
No project
week 97flat energy 31 reply
A brief account of the week. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Wednesdays are just…
Steady
week 80steady energy 33 replies
A brief account of the week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An…
Three years side by side
week 78relieved energy 44 replies
A brief account of the week. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in…
Unremarkable
week 77relieved energy 3
Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Stable. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not…
Nine minutes
week 76brisk energy 52 replies
A brief account of the week. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A locum who had…
Somebody new
week 74warm energy 1
A brief account of the week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
Circle tonight
week 72warm energy 24 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
Two lengths, badly
week 70grateful energy 11 reply
A brief account of the week. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason…
The limits of yoghurt
week 68steady energy 33 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something with protein…
Sunday lunch
week 66warm energy 31 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main course,…
A printout I cannot read
week 64heard energy 12 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
Somebody new
week 62warm energy 34 replies
A brief account of the week. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour.…
I nearly did not write
week 60fine energy 23 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Nine minutes
week 58heard energy 2
A brief account of the week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a…
A wedding
week 57awkward energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved.…
No news
week 55flat energy 43 replies
A brief account of the week. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the…
Two sessions
week 53tired but good energy 52 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Kept…
Quiet
week 51flat energy 51 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked,…
Off the floor
week 49pleased energy 31 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Walked the full length of the pier and back. Swam. First time since school. Two…
An unremarkable week
week 49fine energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The…