I decided not to take it, and that was the right decision for me Writing it down partly to work out what I actually think.
This is a difficult one to write and I have deleted it twice.
The thing that has surprised me most is how much of this is about other people rather than about me.
I have read the guides here, which were more useful than anything else I have found, and I still have a question they do not cover.
What I keep tripping on is not the physical bit. It is the not knowing whether what I am experiencing is normal, and having nobody to ask who is not either selling something or frightened for me.
I will report back either way, because I have been helped by other people's follow-ups more than by their questions.
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