Something I have been sitting with: Practising with the training device Not looking for advice so much as other people's experience.
I have avoided asking about this for six weeks out of pure embarrassment.
I have read the guides here, which were more useful than anything else I have found, and I still have a question they do not cover.
What I would find most useful is not advice. It is somebody describing what their version of this was, and how long it went on for.
The thing that has surprised me most is how much of this is about other people rather than about me.
Anyway. Thank you for reading this far. Any experience gratefully received, and I promise to come back and say what happened.
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