Journal
Ammi’s journal
Here quietly. Reading more than posting.
Nothing happened again
week 74content energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Reading on.
She stopped the room
week 56warm energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour.…
What is your secret
week 43loved energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks.…
Where the pen lives
week 42organised energy 32 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days.…
Quiet
week 41fine energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
I nearly did not write
week 40fine energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Both bags, one go
week 39grateful energy 21 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Reading on.
Three years side by side
week 38relieved energy 42 replies
Short one tonight. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had…
My mother cooks
week 37loved energy 11 reply
A quiet week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is…
Nothing to report
week 35steady energy 13 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report. Writing it…
A1c down
week 35pleased energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. A1c down substantially. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said,…
A wedding
week 34warm energy 41 reply
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks.…
A printout I cannot read
week 33brisk energy 22 replies
Short one tonight. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been…
Quiet
week 32flat energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
Sunday lunch
week 32warm energy 11 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
Flat, whole night
week 30grateful energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened…
Two flights of stairs
week 29pleased energy 21 reply
A quiet week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Reading on.
Fewer, heavier
week 28tired but good energy 22 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes…
Two lines a day
week 27organised energy 32 replies
A quiet week. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather…
Where the pen lives
week 26organised energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two…