Journal
Ashwin’s journal
Vegetarian. Protein is my project.
Two years, no news
week 75settled energy 53 replies
Three things this week. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this…
Unremarkable
week 50pleased energy 31 reply
Three things this week. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Out of the prediabetes range. Three years of results…
Grip
week 41tired but good energy 52 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Walked…
Steady
week 40flat energy 33 replies
Three things this week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by…
Fewer, heavier
week 39tired but good energy 52 replies
Week in order: Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the…
The limits of yoghurt
week 39steady energy 33 replies
Week in order: I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Was undereating…
Two lines a day
week 38organised energy 12 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in…
My mother cooks
week 37awkward energy 41 reply
Three things this week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…
Quiet
week 36flat energy 43 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
She noticed first
week 35held energy 14 replies
Three things this week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday…
Slept through
week 34tired energy 2
Week in order: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape…
She stopped the room
week 34warm energy 34 replies
Week in order: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Awake at four
week 32tired energy 54 replies
Three things this week. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has…
The bad fortnight
week 32flat energy 13 replies
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A difficult monsoon…
Somebody new
week 31warm energy 34 replies
Three things this week. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and…
Stayed for the company
week 30warm energy 14 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…
Steady
week 30steady energy 11 reply
Week in order: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write…
Paired
week 29held energy 3
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
Anchored to the shifts
week 27organised energy 32 replies
Week in order: New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and…
Quiet
week 26flat energy 53 replies
Week in order: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is…