Journal
Ashwin’s journal
Vegetarian. Protein is my project.
Steady
week 25flat energy 43 replies
Week in order: Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false…
Flat, whole night
week 24quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Week in order: Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Up the stairs at work twice without…
Circle tonight
week 23warm energy 44 replies
Week in order: Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the…
Quiet
week 23steady energy 53 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable week.…
Sunday night, four lines
week 21held energy 44 replies
Week in order: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
Steady
week 21fine energy 53 replies
Week in order: An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday,…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 20held energy 24 replies
Three things this week. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something…
She stopped the room
week 19warm energy 3
Three things this week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was…
Six labelled boxes
week 17organised energy 12 replies
Three things this week. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…
Where the pen lives
week 17organised energy 22 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of…
Both bags, one go
week 15pleased energy 21 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Walked into town and back, which I stopped…
Nine minutes
week 15heard energy 12 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…
Before nine
week 14steady energy 23 replies
Three things this week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 13organised energy 1
Week in order: Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it…
Somebody new
week 12warm energy 14 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
Back without making it up
week 11tired but good energy 52 replies
Three things this week. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Kept the two…
Walking
week 10tired but good energy 42 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it…
Quiet
week 9flat energy 33 replies
Week in order: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
She noticed first
week 8held energy 54 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
The question I had been avoiding
week 7brisk energy 32 replies
Week in order: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…