Journal
Nell’s journal
Beekeeper. Very interested in eating enough.
Just Wednesdays
week 81flat energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady, eating properly, still writing about bees. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now.…
Somebody new
week 77warm energy 44 replies
A quiet week. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us…
Awake at four
week 74tired energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years…
Before nine
week 71steady energy 13 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
I nearly did not write
week 68flat energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal…
No news
week 65fine energy 33 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Where the pen lives
week 62organised energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge…
Quiet
week 59steady energy 43 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection…
An unremarkable week
week 56steady energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…
Unremarkable
week 54relieved energy 14 replies
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Improved, and iron better after treatment. Iron and…
Sunday night, four lines
week 53held energy 24 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a…
Grip
week 50tired but good energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Walked instead of the bus…
Protein first
week 47steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written…
Nothing to report
week 44steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly…
Across the day
week 41steady energy 53 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein first, everything else…
Into town and back
week 37quietly delighted energy 32 replies
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Swam. First time since school. Two…
An hour on the floor
week 37grateful energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Lifted a full super without help. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked into…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 34tired but good energy 32 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a…
Six labelled boxes
week 31organised energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Anchored injection day to my…
A different shape
week 28foggy energy 34 replies
Short one tonight. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of…