Journal
Flossie’s journal
Florist. On my feet all day and it shows.
Sunday lunch
week 25warm energy 11 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a…
She noticed first
week 24held energy 34 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
She read the diary
week 23brisk energy 42 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in. She read it properly,…
She stopped the room
week 22warm energy 24 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
Paired
week 21held energy 44 replies
Evening. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one,…
Two flights of stairs
week 20grateful energy 21 reply
Evening. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Early market.
Nothing to report
week 19flat energy 13 replies
Evening. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the…
Two lengths, badly
week 18pleased energy 21 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top…
Starters as a main
week 17awkward energy 11 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed,…
The limits of yoghurt
week 16steady energy 23 replies
Evening. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the…
An unremarkable week
week 15fine energy 23 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Stayed for the company
week 14warm energy 24 replies
Evening. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the…
Quiet
week 13fine energy 13 replies
Evening. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable…
The bad fortnight
week 13sore energy 53 replies
Evening. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A rough…
She stopped the room
week 12warm energy 34 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…
Six labelled boxes
week 11organised energy 52 replies
Evening. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out where…
Where the pen lives
week 10organised energy 52 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and…
Flat, whole night
week 9quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Evening. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Early market.
No news
week 8flat energy 53 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Stayed for the company
week 7warm energy 14 replies
Evening. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…