Journal
Flossie’s journal
Florist. On my feet all day and it shows.
No project
week 103content energy 43 replies
Evening. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Early market.
Three years side by side
week 82pleased energy 21 reply
Evening. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. Fine. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a…
A plain question
week 56practical energy 14 replies
Evening. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Started eating properly between deliveries. Greek…
A wedding
week 43awkward energy 21 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed,…
She reduced it
week 42heard energy 32 replies
Evening. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Nine minutes. I took three written…
She stopped the room
week 40warm energy 34 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…
No news
week 39steady energy 51 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Off the floor
week 38pleased energy 51 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Early market.
I nearly did not write
week 37steady energy 43 replies
Evening. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Awake at four
week 36foggy energy 14 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Steady
week 35fine energy 41 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
Nothing to report
week 34steady energy 23 replies
Evening. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the…
An unremarkable week
week 34fine energy 11 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
An hour on the floor
week 32grateful energy 3
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full ten-hour day, Valentine's week, no leg pain. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That…
Quiet
week 31steady energy 41 reply
Evening. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An unremarkable…
Stayed for the company
week 30warm energy 1
Evening. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…
No news
week 29fine energy 53 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
I nearly did not write
week 28flat energy 23 replies
Evening. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
Into town and back
week 27grateful energy 41 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back up again…
Steady
week 26fine energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…