Journal
Ray’s journal
I complain and then I do it anyway.
Fewer, heavier
week 47tired but good energy 32 replies
Well then. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Started walking with a group, under protest. Two…
Quiet
week 45flat energy 33 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did not write…
She read the diary
week 43brisk energy 22 replies
Right. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. She reduced one of my other…
Stayed for the company
week 41warm energy 34 replies
Right. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I…
An hour on the floor
week 39grateful energy 51 reply
Well then. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Up the stairs at work twice without…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 38held energy 14 replies
Right. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be…
She noticed first
week 36held energy 14 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
I nearly did not write
week 34fine energy 51 reply
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection…
She stopped the room
week 32warm energy 24 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
Anchored to the shifts
week 29organised energy 3
Right. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags…
Come back in a year
week 28relieved energy 34 replies
Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. A1c down. He said it was probably a lab error. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time…
The question I had been avoiding
week 27heard energy 22 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the…
Nothing to report
week 26steady energy 13 replies
Right. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
No mask
week 24rested energy 1
Right. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
What is your secret
week 21loved energy 21 reply
Well then. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
Quiet
week 19steady energy 53 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did not write…
Sore and slow
week 17flat energy 54 replies
Right. Sore at the injection site for about ten days, a small firm lump under the skin. The pharmacist looked at it, was unbothered, and told me to move further round next…
Stayed for the company
week 15warm energy 44 replies
Well then. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight.…
A rough few days
week 15sore energy 12 replies
Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have said nothing about it to…
Nine minutes
week 13frustrated energy 22 replies
Well then. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be…