Journal
Gus’s journal
Finally understand why I was hungry for thirty years.
Two lengths, badly
week 5quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Carried…
A plain question
week 4steady energy 43 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got…
No news
week 3flat energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day…
Standing in the kitchen
week 2wired energy 53 replies
So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the house for four days like it was something I had borrowed and needed to give back, and in the end I did it standing…
Day one
week 2wired energy 41 reply
What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the…
I have started
week 1hopeful energy 43 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. A first entry about thirty…