Journal
Holly’s journal
Menopause and this at the same time. Nobody warned me.
An unremarkable week
week 104flat energy 51 reply
Late, and writing anyway. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…
Nothing happened again
week 87flat energy 24 replies
Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady, sleeping, gardening again. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have…
Three years side by side
week 65relieved energy 42 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Bone density baseline done,…
Circle tonight
week 59warm energy 54 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 57held energy 44 replies
Late, and writing anyway. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and…
Sunday night, four lines
week 56held energy 14 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
Nothing to report
week 54steady energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet.…
Dreams
week 53foggy energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Laces
week 51pleased energy 21 reply
A quiet week. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Tied my own laces standing…
Starters as a main
week 50warm energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table…
Flat, whole night
week 48grateful energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Full shift on my feet and my…
She stopped the room
week 48warm energy 22 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Menopause circle became the…
Somebody new
week 47warm energy 34 replies
A quiet week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking…
Paired
week 45held energy 4
Short one tonight. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month…
Steady
week 44steady energy 11 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
Where the pen lives
week 42organised energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Anchored injection…
I nearly did not write
week 41steady energy 23 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to…
No news
week 39steady energy 43 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Quiet
week 37flat energy 43 replies
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
No mask
week 36tired energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…