Journal
Lil’s journal
Me and my sister started the same week.
What is your secret
week 84awkward energy 51 reply
Evening. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long…
Two years, no news
week 81content energy 12 replies
Evening. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have…
Just Wednesdays
week 80settled energy 23 replies
Evening. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Off to ring Lu.
Circle tonight
week 79warm energy 44 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…
Starters as a main
week 77loved energy 41 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 75held energy 24 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
I nearly did not write
week 73steady energy 23 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. Off to…
Slept through
week 71foggy energy 54 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet…
Laces
week 69grateful energy 11 reply
Evening. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the…
No news
week 67steady energy 31 reply
Evening. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Off to ring Lu.
Quiet
week 65fine energy 51 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…
An unremarkable week
week 63steady energy 43 replies
Evening. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole…
Before nine
week 61steady energy 53 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something with protein…
Somebody new
week 59warm energy 54 replies
Evening. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an…
Sunday night, four lines
week 57held energy 34 replies
Evening. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before.…
At the table
week 55prickly energy 12 replies
Evening. A relative said something at the table that I have been carrying around for a fortnight. My son asked why I was not eating my dinner. I gave him a bad answer,…
Nothing to report
week 53fine energy 33 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Off to ring Lu.
Hiding the box
week 52close energy 42 replies
A relative said something at the table that I have been carrying around for a fortnight. A hard month when their mother commented on both of them. My son asked why I was not…
Flat, whole night
week 51pleased energy 31 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Sat on the floor and played for an hour,…
A plain question
week 48steady energy 53 replies
Evening. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do…