Journal
Pippa’s journal
Learning to stop before I am shattered.
Two years, no news
week 87settled energy 11 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady, pacing, writing weekly. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I…
A1c down
week 69pleased energy 11 reply
A gentle week, mostly. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Improved, and she noted it in one line. Three years…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 59organised energy 42 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a…
She read the diary
week 58frustrated energy 22 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
An hour on the floor
week 56grateful energy 33 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own…
The question I had been avoiding
week 54heard energy 22 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Left…
Two lengths, badly
week 53pleased energy 53 replies
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked the coast path from Portreath to…
No mask
week 53tired energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid…
Stayed for the company
week 51warm energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator…
She stopped the room
week 50warm energy 34 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
A new bin and a plan
week 49organised energy 42 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I…
Awake at four
week 47tired energy 44 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 46held energy 1
A gentle week, mostly. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round.…
What is your secret
week 45loved energy 41 reply
A gentle week, mostly. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody…
I nearly did not write
week 43steady energy 33 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady.…
Protein first
week 41steady energy 43 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing…
An unremarkable week
week 39steady energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks…
Both bags, one go
week 38grateful energy 21 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I…
A different shape
week 36tired energy 34 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have…
The limits of yoghurt
week 36practical energy 22 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Batch cooking on good days for bad days. Protein first,…