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Posy’s journal
Garden, dog, no drama.
Two flights of stairs
week 37quietly delighted energy 34 replies
This week: Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Full shift on my feet and my…
Both bags, one go
week 36quietly delighted energy 12 replies
Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Tied my own…
Dreams
week 35tired energy 14 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in…
Two flights of stairs
week 34pleased energy 12 replies
This week: Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Kneeled to plant bulbs and got up unaided. Got down on the floor and back…
She stopped the room
week 33warm energy 54 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and…
Both bags, one go
week 31pleased energy 21 reply
This week: Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Garden calls.
Two flights of stairs
week 30pleased energy 31 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Garden calls.
The question I had been avoiding
week 29brisk energy 5
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 27held energy 3
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…
Stayed for the company
week 25warm energy 2
This week: The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for the…
Nine minutes
week 24frustrated energy 12 replies
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Left with a printout I could not…
No mask
week 22foggy energy 14 replies
This week: Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other…
The list on the fridge
week 20steady energy 13 replies
This week: I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein first,…
She noticed first
week 19held energy 24 replies
This week: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 17flat energy 23 replies
This week: The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
Both bags, one go
week 15quietly delighted energy 41 reply
This week: Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Carried both bags up in one go. Small…
The bad fortnight
week 14flat energy 12 replies
This week: The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped feeling like…
The limits of yoghurt
week 14steady energy 33 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
A different shape
week 12rested energy 24 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in…
Nothing to report
week 11steady energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…