Journal
Ted’s journal
Tuesday is injection day and I quite like the ritual.
Nothing happened again
week 89content energy 14 replies
This week: Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady, Tuesdays.…
What is your secret
week 78warm energy 11 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 76held energy 44 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
She stopped the room
week 74warm energy 54 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and…
The limits of yoghurt
week 72steady energy 13 replies
This week: Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Greek yoghurt,…
A new bin and a plan
week 70organised energy 22 replies
This week: Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Small logistics…
A printout I cannot read
week 69heard energy 4
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in. She read it properly,…
The question I had been avoiding
week 67heard energy 12 replies
This week: Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She…
A locum
week 66brisk energy 53 replies
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Podiatry review clear. Nine…
No mask
week 65rested energy 24 replies
This week: Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
Stayed for the company
week 62warm energy 34 replies
This week: The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for the…
An hour on the floor
week 60grateful energy 41 reply
This week: Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Walked into town and back,…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 58tired but good energy 3
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Kept…
No news
week 56flat energy 33 replies
This week: An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and…
Protein first
week 54steady energy 53 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier.…
Sunday night, four lines
week 52held energy 24 replies
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each,…
Nothing to report
week 51flat energy 33 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
No news
week 48fine energy 13 replies
This week: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this…
She stopped the room
week 47warm energy 54 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and…
Both bags, one go
week 45quietly delighted energy 52 replies
This week: Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Walked into town and back, which he had stopped doing in 2019. Sat on the…