Journal
Zeb’s journal
US insurance maze. Winning slowly.
No project
week 84content energy 52 replies
Week in order: Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady, appeal…
She noticed first
week 75held energy 24 replies
Week in order: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal…
An unremarkable week
week 73fine energy 43 replies
Three things this week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to…
Anchored to the shifts
week 71organised energy 52 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and…
The question I had been avoiding
week 70heard energy 4
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…
Quiet
week 68fine energy 53 replies
Week in order: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…
Both bags, one go
week 66quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Week in order: Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school.…
No news
week 64flat energy 33 replies
Week in order: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report.…
Sunday night, four lines
week 63held energy 34 replies
Three things this week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
I nearly did not write
week 61fine energy 51 reply
Week in order: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…
Pausing
week 59clear-eyed energy 53 replies
Week in order: Did the arithmetic out loud, on the page, no rounding. It is a lot. Seeing it written down was steadying rather than frightening, which I had not expected.…
Steady
week 59steady energy 23 replies
Week in order: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report.…
An hour on the floor
week 57quietly delighted energy 41 reply
Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about…
Six labelled boxes
week 55organised energy 42 replies
Week in order: Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win: worked out…
She noticed first
week 53held energy 54 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…
Sunday night, four lines
week 51held energy 44 replies
Week in order: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it…
Protein first
week 49steady energy 23 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and…
She read the diary
week 48frustrated energy 12 replies
Week in order: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…
She noticed first
week 45held energy 34 replies
Three things this week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my…
Sunday lunch
week 43loved energy 31 reply
Three things this week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…