Journal
Lena’s journal
Barbell first, everything else second.
No project
week 103settled energy 4
Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady, competing again, journal reads like a training log. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have…
Iron and B12
week 80pleased energy 51 reply
Notes for the week. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Blood pressure normal without medication for the first…
She stopped the room
week 61warm energy 34 replies
Notes for the week. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Started co-holding…
Both bags, one go
week 47pleased energy 3
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Squat back to her previous best at a…
No news
week 38steady energy 31 reply
Recording this for the record. Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give…
Fewer, heavier
week 38tired but good energy 22 replies
Recording this for the record. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground,…
The bad fortnight
week 36sore energy 33 replies
Notes for the week. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid.…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 36sore energy 51 reply
Notes for the week. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this…
The pattern of it
week 35sore energy 22 replies
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Sore at the injection…
Sore and slow
week 34sore energy 1
Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather than…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 33rough energy 32 replies
Notes for the week. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A…
Nine minutes
week 33frustrated energy 22 replies
Notes for the week. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I had been…
Quiet
week 32flat energy 13 replies
Recording this for the record. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
No mask
week 31rested energy 44 replies
Notes for the week. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed…
Two sessions
week 30tired but good energy 32 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Kept the two sessions that matter and…
Sunday night, four lines
week 29held energy 44 replies
Notes for the week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my…
An unremarkable week
week 28flat energy 53 replies
Recording this for the record. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 27held energy 44 replies
Recording this for the record. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one,…
Sunday lunch
week 26warm energy 21 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I…
Stayed for the company
week 25warm energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…