Journal
Mina’s journal
Monday check-ins keep me honest.
No project
week 107settled energy 54 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady, Mondays,…
A1c down
week 85relieved energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a come-back-in-a-year before. Stable. Her doctor said she could come back in a…
My mother cooks
week 66loved energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. A long entry about Portuguese family meals and how she manages…
Nothing
week 49stubborn energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. I wanted to stop this week. Said so out loud in circle, which I had not planned to. Six people said they had been there. Nobody tried to fix it. Five…
Off the floor
week 36pleased energy 53 replies
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked up to the castle without stopping. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Sat on the floor and…
Six labelled boxes
week 31organised energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three cool…
Across the day
week 30steady energy 23 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a…
Stayed for the company
week 30warm energy 54 replies
Short one tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly…
Somebody new
week 29warm energy 54 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and…
No news
week 28flat energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Steady. That is the whole entry. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Until Monday.
Walking
week 27tired but good energy 32 replies
Short one tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Two sessions this week, both short,…
A different shape
week 26tired energy 44 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Awake at four
week 26foggy energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 25held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
Past the shop
week 25thoughtful energy 22 replies
I did not know other people did not have this. That is the part I keep turning over. I assumed everybody was doing the same negotiation all day and simply not mentioning it.…
What was underneath
week 24thoughtful energy 52 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Something has gone quiet and it took me weeks to be able to name it. There was a running commentary in my head about food — what was in the house,…
Back without making it up
week 24tired but good energy 3
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Came…
Fewer, heavier
week 23tired but good energy 22 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed…
Quiet
week 22fine energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Steady. That is the whole entry. Until Monday.
No mask
week 21foggy energy 44 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no…