Journal
Bertie’s journal
Retired teacher. Marking my own homework now.
Flat, whole night
week 24grateful energy 21 reply
A brief account of the week. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me.…
Nothing to report
week 23steady energy 31 reply
A brief account of the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I…
What is your secret
week 22warm energy 41 reply
A brief account of the week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently.…
An unremarkable week
week 21fine energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
She stopped the room
week 20warm energy 24 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
My mother cooks
week 19warm energy 41 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none…
Quiet
week 18steady energy 53 replies
A brief account of the week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks.…
No mask
week 17rested energy 14 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there…
Sore and slow
week 17rough energy 54 replies
A brief account of the week. Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week. Mentioned it and had bloods done rather than being told to eat a banana, which I appreciated.…
No news
week 15steady energy 23 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 15sore energy 14 replies
Cramp in both calves in the night, twice this week. Mentioned it and had bloods done rather than being told to eat a banana, which I appreciated. A hard autumn. Constipation,…
A wedding
week 14warm energy 41 reply
A brief account of the week. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently.…
I nearly did not write
week 13steady energy 53 replies
A brief account of the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole…
Steady
week 12fine energy 23 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Off the floor
week 11quietly delighted energy 21 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice…
Two flights of stairs
week 10grateful energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago…
Awake at four
week 10rested energy 54 replies
A brief account of the week. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Waking at four again. Not anxious,…
Laces
week 8pleased energy 41 reply
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Swam. First time since school. Two…
A printout I cannot read
week 7frustrated energy 12 replies
A brief account of the week. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Took the diary in. She…
Nine minutes
week 6heard energy 52 replies
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that…