Journal
Bertie’s journal
Retired teacher. Marking my own homework now.
A different shape
week 5rested energy 34 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there…
Nothing to report
week 4fine energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I…
An hour on the floor
week 3grateful energy 51 reply
A brief account of the week. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked into town and back, which I…
First dose, done
week 2hopeful energy 23 replies
A brief account of the week. The pharmacist talked me through it very fast and I nodded at all of it and retained about a third. I have written down the bits I remember and I…
The first one
week 2hopeful energy 51 reply
What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. Day one. I am writing this partly because somebody else's…
Beginning, badly
week 1wired energy 24 replies
I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight seconds.…