Journal
Bly’s journal
Nonbinary, thirty-one, cautious optimist.
Just Wednesdays
week 89content energy 3
The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I…
She noticed first
week 71warm energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired with kai_kindly. Paired up. We…
Flat, whole night
week 55grateful energy 5
Short one tonight. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Cycled the Trans Pennine Trail to Penistone. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop…
Nothing to report
week 40steady energy 43 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is…
Two flights of stairs
week 39quietly delighted energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since…
An unremarkable week
week 38steady energy 41 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Protein first
week 37steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits…
The limits of yoghurt
week 36steady energy 33 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the…
My mother cooks
week 35warm energy 21 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
Starters as a main
week 35awkward energy 11 reply
A quiet week. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main…
The mirror
week 34raw energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Clothes shopping was worse, not better. I sat in the car afterwards for twenty minutes. Strangers are being different with me and I hate it. I do…
The changing room
week 33tired of it energy 43 replies
Clothes shopping was worse, not better. I sat in the car afterwards for twenty minutes. Strangers are being different with me and I hate it. I do not have a tidy thought…
I liked it before
week 32tired of it energy 41 reply
Short one tonight. Clothes shopping was worse, not better. I sat in the car afterwards for twenty minutes. A hard month, handled in the body-image circle. Strangers are being…
An hour on the floor
week 31grateful energy 21 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That…
The question I had been avoiding
week 30frustrated energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in.…
The list on the fridge
week 29steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein first,…
Quiet
week 28flat energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
A wedding
week 27awkward energy 41 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main course,…
Where the pen lives
week 27organised energy 12 replies
Short one tonight. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Small logistics win: worked…
Sunday night, four lines
week 25held energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way…