Journal
Bly’s journal
Nonbinary, thirty-one, cautious optimist.
She stopped the room
week 25warm energy 44 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
Dreams
week 23tired energy 44 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather than…
No news
week 23flat energy 23 replies
Short one tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by…
A new bin and a plan
week 22organised energy 1
Late, and writing anyway. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a…
She noticed first
week 21held energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
Walking
week 20tired but good energy 42 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven…
What is your secret
week 19warm energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main…
She read the diary
week 18brisk energy 52 replies
Short one tonight. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
I nearly did not write
week 16flat energy 43 replies
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
Two sessions
week 16tired but good energy 52 replies
A quiet week. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 15tired but good energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme.…
Nine minutes
week 14heard energy 41 reply
A quiet week. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A GP who got it right,…
Anchored to the shifts
week 14organised energy 42 replies
Short one tonight. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Sunday night, four lines
week 13held energy 54 replies
A quiet week. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my…
Steady
week 11steady energy 13 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did not write this week because…
Both bags, one go
week 10grateful energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years.…
The question I had been avoiding
week 9heard energy 12 replies
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which…
Where the pen lives
week 8organised energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two…
Nothing to report
week 7flat energy 43 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is…
She read the diary
week 6frustrated energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Nine minutes. I took three written questions…