Journal
Carl’s journal
Sixty-one, type 2, doing this for my grandkids and my feet.
No project
week 100flat energy 5
This week: Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady,…
Not a number
week 85delighted energy 3
This week: Not a number. A thing I can do now that I could not do, and I am going to describe it in detail because that is the only kind of record I want to keep. Off insulin…
Nothing to report
week 76steady energy 33 replies
This week: Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's…
Quiet
week 75fine energy 51 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is well, the…
Nine minutes
week 72brisk energy 42 replies
This week: Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. She reduced one of my other…
A printout I cannot read
week 70brisk energy 11 reply
This week: She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and…
Nine minutes
week 68frustrated energy 41 reply
Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried…
A printout I cannot read
week 67heard energy 43 replies
This week: Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Podiatry review: sensation improved, which…
She stopped the room
week 67warm energy 44 replies
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of…
Starters as a main
week 64awkward energy 11 reply
This week: Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation…
Paired
week 63held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
An hour on the floor
week 61pleased energy 11 reply
This week: Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Got down on the floor and back…
I nearly did not write
week 58flat energy 13 replies
This week: No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday,…
She noticed first
week 57held energy 14 replies
This week: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a…
Anchored to the shifts
week 54organised energy 42 replies
This week: New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it…
No mask
week 53tired energy 34 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have…
Flat, whole night
week 50quietly delighted energy 21 reply
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. That will do.
An hour on the floor
week 49pleased energy 23 replies
This week: Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Got down on the floor with his granddaughter and got back up. Up the…
What is your secret
week 48awkward energy 51 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none…
My mother cooks
week 47warm energy 31 reply
This week: Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation…