Journal
Carl’s journal
Sixty-one, type 2, doing this for my grandkids and my feet.
Nine minutes
week 45frustrated energy 1
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A locum who had clearly read…
A printout I cannot read
week 43heard energy 12 replies
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 41held energy 54 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
Walking
week 39tired but good energy 42 replies
This week: Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done.…
Awake at four
week 37tired energy 54 replies
This week: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Nine minutes
week 37frustrated energy 11 reply
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Insulin reduced, under close supervision.…
A wedding
week 35awkward energy 21 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none…
Flat, whole night
week 33grateful energy 41 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. That will do.
A different shape
week 32tired energy 34 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have…
Dreams
week 30rested energy 54 replies
This week: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Across the day
week 28steady energy 13 replies
This week: I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Greek yoghurt, eggs,…
Come back in a year
week 26pleased energy 21 reply
This week: Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The…
The list on the fridge
week 23steady energy 33 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice…
Iron and B12
week 23pleased energy 13 replies
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. A1c down for the first time in four years. Iron and…
Across the day
week 21steady energy 43 replies
This week: Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things I can get down…
Sunday night, four lines
week 19held energy 44 replies
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each,…
Nothing to report
week 17fine energy 21 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
A printout I cannot read
week 15heard energy 5
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the…
A rough few days
week 13sore energy 11 reply
This week: Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. The nausea…
Quiet
week 11flat energy 33 replies
This week: An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…