Journal
Col’s journal
Living in a van. Cold chain is a genuine puzzle.
Flat, whole night
week 45grateful energy 43 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning.…
Both bags, one go
week 45grateful energy 24 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Paddled out at Fistral every day for a fortnight.…
Walking
week 43tired but good energy 22 replies
Quickly, before bed. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have…
Paired
week 41held energy 44 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
Dreams
week 39tired energy 2
Quickly, before bed. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay…
An hour on the floor
week 37quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Quickly, before bed. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Tied my own laces…
Somebody new
week 34warm energy 34 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
She read the diary
week 33brisk energy 4
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one…
Sunday night, four lines
week 30held energy 3
Quickly, before bed. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my…
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 28sore energy 43 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly…
Six labelled boxes
week 28organised energy 22 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the…
She reduced it
week 26heard energy 52 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about…
Where the pen lives
week 24organised energy 22 replies
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Small logistics win: worked…
Nothing to report
week 22steady energy 21 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 20tired but good energy 12 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter…
Protein first
week 18steady energy 13 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 16held energy 14 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 14organised energy 5
Quickly, before bed. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a…
A new bin and a plan
week 12pleased energy 31 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Solved cold storage with a 12V cooler and a thermometer. Published…
She noticed first
week 12held energy 3
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and…