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Espe’s journal
Andalusian heat, evening walks, late dinners.
Steady
week 33flat energy 51 reply
Evening. Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 31held energy 24 replies
Evening. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before.…
Six labelled boxes
week 29organised energy 52 replies
Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer…
Circle tonight
week 27warm energy 44 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
Starters as a main
week 25awkward energy 41 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly,…
A rough few days
week 23sore energy 24 replies
Evening. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Bad week and I…
Paired
week 21held energy 54 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I…
Propped up on pillows
week 19rough energy 21 reply
Evening. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time rather…
Quiet
week 19steady energy 53 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is well, the…
Sunday lunch
week 17loved energy 21 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
A different shape
week 15foggy energy 14 replies
Evening. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
Grip
week 12tired but good energy 52 replies
Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme.…
A plain question
week 11steady energy 53 replies
Evening. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and…
No mask
week 8foggy energy 14 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
A wedding
week 6awkward energy 21 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly,…
Steady
week 4fine energy 43 replies
Evening. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
Beginning, badly
week 2wired energy 52 replies
Evening. I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. So. First one done. I had been carrying…
I have started
week 1nervous energy 41 reply
Evening. So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the house for four days like it was something I had borrowed and needed to give back, and in the end I did it…