Journal
Florrie’s journal
Grandma of five. Doing this for the floor-play.
Reduced
week 93flat energy 53 replies
Evening. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. Wednesdays are…
Three years side by side
week 64relieved energy 22 replies
Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. A1c down. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which…
A new bin and a plan
week 57organised energy 22 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Awake at four
week 55tired energy 54 replies
Evening. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather…
Nothing to report
week 54flat energy 31 reply
Evening. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Dreams
week 53foggy energy 44 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather than…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 52held energy 14 replies
Evening. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my journal…
Two flights of stairs
week 51pleased energy 11 reply
Evening. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted.…
She read the diary
week 50frustrated energy 32 replies
Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. She reduced one of my other medications. I…
Starters as a main
week 49warm energy 11 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I…
She stopped the room
week 47warm energy 14 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
No mask
week 46foggy energy 54 replies
Evening. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather…
No news
week 44steady energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Nothing to report
week 43steady energy 53 replies
Evening. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet.…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 42tired but good energy 52 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a…
A different shape
week 40rested energy 54 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. The sleep has changed shape rather than…
Both bags, one go
week 38quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that…
Where the pen lives
week 37organised energy 22 replies
Evening. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. New sharps bin, and a…
Two flights of stairs
week 37pleased energy 23 replies
Evening. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, then got up. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Grandkids at ten.
Two sessions
week 35tired but good energy 42 replies
Evening. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly…