Journal
Inês’s journal
Small steps only. It is the only way I last.
Stayed for the company
week 48warm energy 34 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new tonight,…
I nearly did not write
week 46fine energy 23 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Two lines a day
week 44organised energy 52 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a…
Off the floor
week 42pleased energy 52 replies
Short one tonight. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Full shift on her feet…
She noticed first
week 40held energy 24 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
Nine minutes
week 38frustrated energy 42 replies
A quiet week. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Took the diary in. She read it…
Protein first
week 36steady energy 33 replies
A quiet week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of…
The limits of yoghurt
week 34steady energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the…
The list on the fridge
week 31steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the…
Come back in a year
week 29pleased energy 21 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. Bloods back. Unremarkable,…
My mother cooks
week 27awkward energy 21 reply
Late, and writing anyway. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as…
A1c down
week 27relieved energy 32 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only thing worth looking at. A1c down without ever going…
Walking
week 25tired but good energy 12 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make…
Both bags, one go
week 23pleased energy 41 reply
Short one tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the…
Nothing to report
week 21steady energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
Starters as a main
week 19warm energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as a main…
Back without making it up
week 17tired but good energy 32 replies
Short one tonight. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Walked instead of the…
Protein first
week 15steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of…
Holding here
week 14wary energy 5
I have been at the same step for five months and every clinician I meet seems mildly surprised. It is working. I am not moving. A slower schedule agreed with her…
A wedding
week 13warm energy 51 reply
Late, and writing anyway. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Starters as…