Journal
Izzy’s journal
Between doses, between jobs, between plans.
Just Wednesdays
week 95flat energy 14 replies
Right. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so, because nobody wrote this part down for me. Steady. The strange part is…
Paired
week 84held energy 14 replies
Well then. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine…
Quiet
week 82fine energy 21 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
No news
week 79fine energy 33 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made…
I nearly did not write
week 76flat energy 41 reply
Well then. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 73tired but good energy 5
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week…
Steady
week 71flat energy 23 replies
Well then. Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's…
Laces
week 69grateful energy 22 replies
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Carried both bags up in one go. Small…
Into town and back
week 68quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Right. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Walked to work rather than taking the bus, for a month. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat.…
A locum
week 66brisk energy 22 replies
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the…
Laces
week 63quietly delighted energy 51 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot.…
The list on the fridge
week 61steady energy 13 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain…
She read the diary
week 58heard energy 12 replies
Well then. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be…
Stayed for the company
week 55warm energy 14 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Circle tonight. Eight of us,…
Nothing to report
week 53flat energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is well, the…
An unremarkable week
week 50fine energy 43 replies
Right. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
Sunday night, four lines
week 48held energy 14 replies
Right. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and…
The routine came apart
week 45better energy 51 reply
Told my prescriber rather than waiting to see. That is new for me and it is entirely down to something someone said in circle. A hard summer, handled with her GP. My routine…
Quiet
week 42flat energy 13 replies
Right. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most…
A locum
week 40frustrated energy 22 replies
Right. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Asked the question I had been avoiding for…