Journal
Keeley’s journal
Carer for my mum. Barely thought about myself until now.
Starters as a main
week 22awkward energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what…
Nine minutes
week 21brisk energy 32 replies
A quiet week. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other…
My mother cooks
week 21warm energy 51 reply
Short one tonight. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out…
A plain question
week 20steady energy 13 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer.…
Back without making it up
week 19tired but good energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Kept the two sessions that…
A rough few days
week 18flat energy 33 replies
A quiet week. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it this time…
Propped up on pillows
week 17flat energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly…
Laces
week 16pleased energy 41 reply
A quiet week. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Mum needs settling.
Unpleasant, not dangerous
week 15sore energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Reflux again. I slept propped up on three pillows and woke at two anyway. I have an appointment on Thursday and I am going to actually mention it…
Nothing to report
week 14steady energy 21 reply
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. Mum needs settling.
A different shape
week 13rested energy 34 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
Steady
week 12fine energy 33 replies
A quiet week. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week…
I nearly did not write
week 11steady energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked,…
No news
week 10fine energy 23 replies
A quiet week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Steady. That is the whole entry. Mum needs settling.
Sunday lunch
week 9awkward energy 41 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still…
What is your secret
week 8awkward energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what…
A wedding
week 8loved energy 11 reply
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say…
Before nine
week 7steady energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying…
Quiet
week 6fine energy 53 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Steady. That is the whole entry. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the…
Two lengths, badly
week 5grateful energy 51 reply
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care.…