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A printout I cannot read
Carlheard energy 5
She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
Devflat energy 5
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. Bad week and I am writing it down anyway,…
Into town and back
Hannahpleased energy 4
A quiet week. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning.…
Anchored to the shifts
Kezorganised energy 4
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four…
Off the floor
Lilquietly delighted energy 5
Evening. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I…
Day one
Minniehopeful energy 2
So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the house for four days like it was something I had borrowed and needed to give back, and in the end I did it…
Paired
Ottolineheld energy 1
A brief account of the week. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy…
Anchored to the shifts
Pippaorganised energy 5
A gentle week, mostly. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps…
I have started
Ravihopeful energy 1turning point
Notes for the week. What I keep coming back to is how long it took me to get here. Not the medication — the asking. Years of that. Knew the pharmacology and was still…
She read the diary
Taviabrisk energy 4
Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…
Fewer, heavier
Lenasteady energy 5
Notes for the week. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening…
Circle tonight
Baywarm energy 4
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the…
Steady
Bertiefine energy 2
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then…
Standing in the kitchen
Blywired energy 2
So. First one done. I had been carrying the box around the house for four days like it was something I had borrowed and needed to give back, and in the end I did it…
Circle tonight
Bunnywarm energy 5
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the…
A wedding
Dotloved energy 4
Well then. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Sunday lunch…
No mask
Heddarested energy 4
Recording this for the record. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every…
A wedding
Inêswarm energy 5
Late, and writing anyway. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word.…
Laces
Olliequietly delighted energy 2
A gentle week, mostly. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not…
Two flights of stairs
Ozzygrateful energy 1
Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Tied my own laces standing up. I…
I did not know
Soniaunsettled energy 1turning point
A gentle week, mostly. The hum is back, quieter. I panicked when it started returning and Jonah pointed out, mildly, that nobody had promised it was permanent. Taste…
No mask
Mattrested energy 5
This week: Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of…
Into town and back
Minaquietly delighted energy 4
A quiet week. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a…
Fewer, heavier
Poppytired but good energy 3
Quickly, before bed. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I…