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Mark’s journal
Week fourteen. Learning that a plateau is not a verdict.
Just Wednesdays
week 102settled energy 34 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady, writes when something happens, which is now rarely. Two years. My only…
Sunday night, four lines
week 91held energy 54 replies
Quickly, before bed. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become…
Off the floor
week 88quietly delighted energy 31 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked into…
Steady
week 86steady energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and…
What is your secret
week 83loved energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I…
Starters as a main
week 81warm energy 41 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
Iron and B12
week 79pleased energy 43 replies
Quickly, before bed. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. Bloods good. His mother cried on the phone. Three years of results side by…
An unremarkable week
week 78flat energy 41 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. An…
Stayed for the company
week 76warm energy 24 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and…
A locum
week 74frustrated energy 32 replies
Quickly, before bed. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A locum who had clearly…
No news
week 71fine energy 13 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Dreams
week 69tired energy 44 replies
Quickly, before bed. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to…
Paired
week 66held energy 34 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. Nobody has ever…
Steady
week 64fine energy 51 reply
Quickly, before bed. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and…
An unremarkable week
week 61fine energy 43 replies
Quickly, before bed. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the…
Back without making it up
week 60tired but good energy 24 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Started…
She noticed first
week 58held energy 24 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
She reduced it
week 56frustrated energy 32 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Asked the question I…
No news
week 54flat energy 43 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has…
Steady
week 51fine energy 53 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my…