Journal
Nettie’s journal
Shipyard shifts and a good union rep.
She noticed first
week 49held energy 24 replies
This week: My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each,…
A new bin and a plan
week 47organised energy 52 replies
This week: Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a plan for…
Quiet
week 45steady energy 53 replies
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did not write…
Steady
week 43steady energy 51 reply
This week: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection…
Quiet
week 41fine energy 31 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of…
Nine minutes
week 38brisk energy 32 replies
This week: Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of my other…
Two sessions
week 36tired but good energy 42 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
The pattern of it
week 35sore energy 11 reply
Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have said nothing about it to…
She stopped the room
week 35warm energy 1
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
No mask
week 33foggy energy 24 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Waking at…
Steady
week 31steady energy 11 reply
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did…
A different shape
week 29foggy energy 14 replies
This week: Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it.…
Sunday night, four lines
week 27held energy 24 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…
Slept through
week 25tired energy 44 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Waking at…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 23tired but good energy 1
This week: Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done.…
Into town and back
week 20quietly delighted energy 41 reply
This week: Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Tied my own laces standing up.…
Quiet
week 19fine energy 33 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
Stayed for the company
week 17warm energy 1
This week: The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…
My mother cooks
week 15awkward energy 21 reply
This week: Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of…
Where the pen lives
week 13organised energy 14 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Fridge access at work, negotiated. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the…