Journal
Nix’s journal
Neurodivergent. Routine is everything.
Walking
week 47tired but good energy 12 replies
Recording this for the record. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Walked…
A wedding
week 45awkward energy 51 reply
Notes for the week. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Somebody…
I nearly did not write
week 43flat energy 53 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
Stayed for the company
week 41warm energy 24 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 39held energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week…
Flat, whole night
week 37grateful energy 31 reply
Notes for the week. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened…
An hour on the floor
week 35pleased energy 51 reply
Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it…
Flat, whole night
week 33grateful energy 21 reply
Recording this for the record. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Tied my own laces…
She stopped the room
week 31steadied energy 33 replies
Recording this for the record. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Neurodivergent circle from its first meeting.…
Quiet
week 29steady energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No…
Protein first
week 27steady energy 23 replies
Recording this for the record. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Was undereating without…
Sunday night, four lines
week 25held energy 44 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has…
An hour on the floor
week 23quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Slept flat. Whole…
No mask
week 21tired energy 14 replies
Notes for the week. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written…
Awake at four
week 19rested energy 14 replies
Recording this for the record. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything…
Where the pen lives
week 17pleased energy 33 replies
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days.…
Flat, whole night
week 15grateful energy 31 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 15organised energy 54 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Rebuilt a safe-food list with an occupational therapist. Anchored…
Fewer, heavier
week 13tired but good energy 12 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a…
Sore and slow
week 11flat energy 54 replies
Notes for the week. The nausea has a shape to it now. Thursday teatime it starts, Friday it peaks, Saturday afternoon it lifts. Once I could see the pattern it stopped…