Journal
Peggy’s journal
Seventy. Told nobody for six months.
Protein first
week 26steady energy 13 replies
This week: Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Got something…
Dreams
week 25rested energy 34 replies
This week: The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been…
A printout I cannot read
week 24brisk energy 42 replies
This week: A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other medications.…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 23organised energy 52 replies
This week: Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Batch cooked on a good day for the…
Across the day
week 21steady energy 53 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at…
Circle tonight
week 21warm energy 34 replies
This week: Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an…
Flat, whole night
week 20grateful energy 11 reply
This week: Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check.…
I nearly did not write
week 19steady energy 13 replies
This week: I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is the…
An unremarkable week
week 18fine energy 31 reply
Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the…
Sore and slow
week 17sore energy 24 replies
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. Sore at the injection site for about ten days, a…
Paired
week 15held energy 34 replies
This week: Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed something in my…
The bad fortnight
week 15sore energy 21 reply
Very tired. Not the kind of tired a nap fixes. I slept nine hours and woke feeling as though I had been awake all night. A rough summer borne alone. Sore at the injection…
Into town and back
week 14grateful energy 21 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I…
I nearly did not write
week 13steady energy 31 reply
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…
Where the pen lives
week 12organised energy 5
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is…
A different shape
week 11tired energy 34 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that…
An unremarkable week
week 10steady energy 43 replies
An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal…
Awake at four
week 9rested energy 3
This week: The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been…
Grip
week 8tired but good energy 32 replies
This week: Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Kept the two sessions that matter and…
She stopped the room
week 7warm energy 44 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the…