Journal
Prue’s journal
Careful by nature and it has served me well.
Two years, no news
week 101content energy 5
Reduced to a maintenance dose. Same day, same fridge, less of it. Steady. Two years. My only news is that there is no news, and I have come back specifically to say so,…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 79held energy 5
A brief account of the week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how…
Two lines a day
week 77organised energy 12 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in…
Grip
week 75tired but good energy 5
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Two sessions this week, both short, both…
Iron and B12
week 75relieved energy 54 replies
Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. Stable. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a…
She stopped the room
week 73warm energy 4
A brief account of the week. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
A different shape
week 71rested energy 4
A brief account of the week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different,…
No mask
week 69foggy energy 34 replies
Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet…
Where the pen lives
week 67organised energy 42 replies
A brief account of the week. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in…
Laces
week 66pleased energy 21 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second…
Two lines a day
week 63organised energy 52 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in…
Paired
week 61held energy 24 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
A printout I cannot read
week 59heard energy 5
A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 57held energy 14 replies
A brief account of the week. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
Dreams
week 55foggy energy 24 replies
A brief account of the week. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different,…
Two lengths, badly
week 54grateful energy 31 reply
A brief account of the week. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Full shift on my feet and…
Into town and back
week 51quietly delighted energy 42 replies
A brief account of the week. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Up…
Off the floor
week 50quietly delighted energy 4
Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Walked the city walls twice in a morning. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the…
I nearly did not write
week 50fine energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on…
Paired
week 48held energy 24 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up.…