Journal
Saoirse’s journal
Gentle with myself, finally.
Steady
week 83fine energy 33 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running.…
The question I had been avoiding
week 81frustrated energy 52 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Nine minutes. I took three written…
I nearly did not write
week 79fine energy 23 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
Nothing happened again
week 77content energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Two years. My only news is…
Protein first
week 75steady energy 43 replies
A gentle week, mostly. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein…
Just Wednesdays
week 74settled energy 51 reply
A gentle week, mostly. The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Two years. My only news is that…
She stopped the room
week 73warm energy 54 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped…
Two flights of stairs
week 71quietly delighted energy 31 reply
A gentle week, mostly. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Carried both bags up…
Both bags, one go
week 69grateful energy 21 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not…
Slept through
week 67rested energy 4
A gentle week, mostly. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is…
Paired
week 65held energy 54 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
Fewer, heavier
week 63tired but good energy 42 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 61tired but good energy 32 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a…
She read the diary
week 58brisk energy 12 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. A locum who had…
Anchored to the shifts
week 56organised energy 32 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
Stayed for the company
week 54warm energy 2
A gentle week, mostly. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about…
My mother cooks
week 53awkward energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I…
Two flights of stairs
week 51quietly delighted energy 13 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have…
Both bags, one go
week 49grateful energy 43 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Swam at Tramore.…
Starters as a main
week 49loved energy 41 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who…