Journal
Tarn’s journal
Lake District. Walking myself back to strength.
No project
week 83flat energy 11 reply
The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth…
Starters as a main
week 82awkward energy 31 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
What is your secret
week 79warm energy 11 reply
This week: A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is…
Where the pen lives
week 76organised energy 4
This week: New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it…
She noticed first
week 73held energy 44 replies
This week: She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
A different shape
week 70foggy energy 54 replies
This week: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Back without making it up
week 67tired but good energy 22 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
The limits of yoghurt
week 64steady energy 43 replies
This week: Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything else after. It is not…
Paired
week 61held energy 14 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
My mother cooks
week 58awkward energy 51 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
Nothing to report
week 56fine energy 13 replies
This week: Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I…
Sunday night, four lines
week 53warm energy 13 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired with tarn_and_tor. They walk on Sundays. Nobody has ever asked me…
Laces
week 53quietly delighted energy 31 reply
This week: Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an…
I nearly did not write
week 50steady energy 21 reply
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report. Writing it…
Dreams
week 47foggy energy 24 replies
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have…
Stayed for the company
week 44warm energy 14 replies
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
A wedding
week 41warm energy 41 reply
This week: A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is…
Circle tonight
week 38warm energy 24 replies
The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Went for the practical…
Quiet
week 35steady energy 41 reply
This week: Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet.…
Both bags, one go
week 31grateful energy 41 reply
Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Tied my own laces…