Journal
Tavia’s journal
Sicilian family. Very loud, very loving.
Sunday night, four lines
week 38held energy 24 replies
My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the…
The limits of yoghurt
week 37steady energy 23 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
Propped up on pillows
week 36rough energy 14 replies
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. Manageable. Cramp in…
The list on the fridge
week 35steady energy 33 replies
Evening. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them…
Protein first
week 34steady energy 43 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Protein first, everything else…
A wedding
week 32warm energy 21 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none…
A locum
week 30frustrated energy 42 replies
Evening. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. Took the diary in. She read it…
Somebody new
week 28warm energy 24 replies
Evening. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were…
Back without making it up
week 27tired but good energy 52 replies
Evening. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme.…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 25tired but good energy 42 replies
Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes…
Back without making it up
week 24tired but good energy 5
Evening. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and…
Awake at four
week 22tired energy 24 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 21tired but good energy 22 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
A different shape
week 19rested energy 34 replies
Evening. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the…
No news
week 18steady energy 13 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild…
She stopped the room
week 16warm energy 54 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual…
Dreams
week 15tired energy 24 replies
Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning…
Sunday lunch
week 14loved energy 32 replies
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A long, warm, argumentative entry about food as love. Starters as a…
Quiet
week 12steady energy 13 replies
Evening. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most…
An hour on the floor
week 10pleased energy 51 reply
Evening. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Sat on the floor and played for an…