What was underneath it, once it went — putting it in its own thread so it does not get lost in the check-in.
This is a difficult one to write and I have deleted it twice.
The thing that has surprised me most is how much of this is about other people rather than about me.
What I keep tripping on is not the physical bit. It is the not knowing whether what I am experiencing is normal, and having nobody to ask who is not either selling something or frightened for me.
Thanks all. Genuinely.
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