Journal
Noah’s journal
Nights on a ward. My week has no shape and I am making peace with it.
No mask
week 31foggy energy 14 replies
Right. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort…
Where the pen lives
week 29organised energy 3
Well then. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Batch cooked on a good day for the…
Six labelled boxes
week 27organised energy 52 replies
Right. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to…
The list on the fridge
week 26steady energy 13 replies
Right. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and…
Laces
week 25pleased energy 41 reply
Well then. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to stop. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Off to bed.…
I nearly did not write
week 24fine energy 23 replies
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report.…
An unremarkable week
week 23steady energy 33 replies
Right. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet. Injection…
Stayed for the company
week 22steadied energy 43 replies
Right. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Kiki's 07:30 circle…
Flat, whole night
week 21grateful energy 31 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years.…
I nearly did not write
week 20fine energy 51 reply
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 19tired but good energy 22 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
Fewer, heavier
week 18tired but good energy 3
Well then. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done.…
Anchored to the shifts
week 17organised energy 1
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two lines a day in a paper…
An unremarkable week
week 15fine energy 43 replies
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Nothing to report.…
She stopped the room
week 14warm energy 44 replies
Well then. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
I nearly did not write
week 13fine energy 21 reply
Well then. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Quiet.…
Awake at four
week 12tired energy 5
Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Could not tell what was the medication and…
A different shape
week 11foggy energy 1
Well then. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
Dreams
week 10rested energy 5
Right. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort…
Walking
week 9tired but good energy 2
Right. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and…