Journal
Bay’s journal
Sea swimming and reflux. Unrelated. Probably.
Back without making it up
week 34tired but good energy 32 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I noticed it anywhere else. Back to loading properly. Eight minutes…
Steady
week 32fine energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
A printout I cannot read
week 31frustrated energy 32 replies
A gentle week, mostly. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Treated, and it settled. Left with a printout I could not…
Two lengths, badly
week 30quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do…
Two sessions
week 29tired but good energy 22 replies
A gentle week, mostly. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Two sessions this week, both short, both…
Off the floor
week 28grateful energy 31 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware…
Paired
week 26held energy 24 replies
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
A different shape
week 25tired energy 24 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every…
Somebody new
week 23warm energy 14 replies
Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said…
No mask
week 22foggy energy 14 replies
A gentle week, mostly. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you…
No news
week 20steady energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
A new bin and a plan
week 19organised energy 12 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four…
An unremarkable week
week 17fine energy 53 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of…
A wedding
week 16warm energy 21 reply
A gentle week, mostly. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. Somebody asked…
The pattern of it
week 15flat energy 41 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and…
A rough few days
week 14sore energy 31 reply
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Sore at the injection site for about ten days, a small firm lump under the skin. The pharmacist looked at it, was unbothered, and told…
Grip
week 13tired but good energy 32 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Walked…
Before nine
week 12steady energy 53 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier.…
The question I had been avoiding
week 11frustrated energy 42 replies
Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I…
Circle tonight
week 9warm energy 44 replies
Sitting down to this properly tonight. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical…