Journal
Bo’s journal
Cold swims and a slow titration.
Two years, no news
week 78content energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this…
A printout I cannot read
week 54frustrated energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Left with a printout I could not read and no idea what to be worried about. Taking it to bloodwork-buddies on Thursday. Blood pressure medication stopped.…
Across the day
week 40steady energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of…
An unremarkable week
week 38flat energy 31 reply
Short one tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other…
Nine minutes
week 37frustrated energy 22 replies
A quiet week. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A locum who had clearly read…
A printout I cannot read
week 36heard energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. A locum who had clearly read nothing. I was polite, I got what I needed, and I have booked with my own GP for next month. Nine minutes. I took three…
Before nine
week 35practical energy 5
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I…
A plain question
week 35practical energy 32 replies
A quiet week. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Started…
No news
week 34flat energy 53 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news. The dog is well, the…
Circle tonight
week 33warm energy 14 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room when four…
Two flights of stairs
week 32pleased energy 41 reply
A quiet week. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Walked into town and back,…
Steady
week 31fine energy 13 replies
A quiet week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet. Injection Tuesday,…
No mask
week 30rested energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything…
An unremarkable week
week 29flat energy 21 reply
A quiet week. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what…
Across the day
week 28steady energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Spread it across the day instead of trying…
Starters as a main
week 27warm energy 21 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
Nine minutes
week 27frustrated energy 12 replies
Short one tonight. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. She reduced one of my…
Into town and back
week 26quietly delighted energy 2
Late, and writing anyway. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Slept flat.…
An hour on the floor
week 25quietly delighted energy 12 replies
A quiet week. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been…
Dreams
week 24foggy energy 2
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…