Journal
Dev’s journal
I will read the paper before I believe the post.
No project
week 105content energy 51 reply
The strange part is not having a project any more. I had not understood how much I was enjoying having one. Steady, still citing. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Reduced…
An hour on the floor
week 88grateful energy 14 replies
Recording this for the record. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Ran 10k, having previously been unable to run for a bus. Tied my own laces…
A printout I cannot read
week 66brisk energy 11 reply
Notes for the week. She reduced one of my other medications. I asked her twice whether that was really allowed. Talked his own GP through FLOW, politely. Took the diary in.…
No news
week 56fine energy 23 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. An…
A different shape
week 55tired energy 34 replies
Notes for the week. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written…
Sunday night, four lines
week 53held energy 44 replies
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable…
An unremarkable week
week 52fine energy 13 replies
Recording this for the record. Steady. That is the whole entry. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The…
My mother cooks
week 50loved energy 11 reply
My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved. Starters as a main course,…
Off the floor
week 49pleased energy 41 reply
Notes for the week. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I…
Weather, not a verdict
week 47frayed energy 54 replies
Recording this for the record. Second plateau, and it is easier than the first, mostly because I have been here and come out the other side without doing anything clever.…
I wanted to stop
week 46low energy 1
Flat again. I have stopped looking, which is either healthy or avoidance and I genuinely cannot tell. A flat spring which he insisted on calling "the expected asymptote". The…
No mask
week 46rested energy 34 replies
Recording this for the record. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything…
Dreams
week 44rested energy 24 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
Before nine
week 43steady energy 13 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. Spread it across the day…
What is your secret
week 41awkward energy 21 reply
Recording this for the record. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you, and we manage. It is not a problem to be solved.…
A plain question
week 40steady energy 43 replies
Recording this for the record. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Got something with protein in before nine this…
Steady
week 38flat energy 53 replies
Notes for the week. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 37organised energy 52 replies
Recording this for the record. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. New sharps bin, and a plan for…
No news
week 35fine energy 33 replies
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Steady. That is the whole entry. An…
Come back in a year
week 34pleased energy 43 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Lipids improved. Wrote 900 words about confounding. Bloods back.…